Been a Long Time, Shouldn't Have Left You

Sorry its been two days, last I checked in I was cursing my lady parts and hating life. Well a few things have changed. For starters I probably should have waited to have my nervous break down until this weekend. Tuesday when AF didn't show I decided to test that night and to DH and my surprise, BFP! I'm actually still in shock. I tested twice because the positive vertical part of the plus sign was much darker than the negative horizontal part and for whatever reason I was thinking I was reading the test incorrectly which stupid me, it made a plus sign anyway so it didn't matter what line was darker. After taking the second test the next morning, same results it confirmed that my levels were high, hence the darker line. So finally BFP! The funny thing is I started this blog this month and it seems like I got PG after only one cycle but if I could bring you back, I m/c ed in September and have been trying diligently since October so its been quite a few months. So here I am officially on my way to mommyhood. I'm terrified! Honestly, so scared, mostly because I don't want what happened to me once to ever happen to me again. I will say I am not paranoid this time around though on a few occasions I have checked my undies but only since I was in the bathroom peeing anyway. Its been 3 days, no symptoms really. Under my armpits is sore and I can't sleep on my stomach anymore. Weird pain like sensation, I have reverted to sleep on my side. I am paranoid about the way I stretch in my sleep- I'm like a crazy person doing gymnastics with legs that do split like motions. I seem to twist my torso to get comfy and I'm nervous I'm hurting the baby. I'll have to be sure to ask the dr. about this. Speaking of which my gyno is out on maternity leave, how ironic. My new dr. is the one who did my d&c, sweet lady. So I am set for Feb. 11th. I also called the endo because I'm staying on top of this this time. He already bumped me up to synthroid 100 from 75 and I am to have blood taken in 4 weeks followed by an appointment with him in late Feb. Excellent dr., he got on the phone personally with me when I called his office late on Tuesday, can you believe that? DH and I were so impressed, I mean really! So that is the story. I am dying for a wax, really its a jungle down there lol, hope that made you laugh cause its really not funny. I'm scheduled for Tuesday at 11, ugh, that's going to be forever!! Anyway, that's all I have for you. I'm eating healthy and trying to exercise, I walked around my development today, its was about a mile, with my little man. Getting ready to make dinner, I'll keep you posted.